Wednesday, May 19, 2010


When I think of happiness, the only thing I can picture is my niece’s drawing of our family holding hands with green grass, a yellow sun, a blue house and an array of red smiles. I often wish I could just instill myself in that state of happiness or love or whatever the hell you want to call it. But it seems as if all I can ever think of is “What if the grass turns yellow? The sun turns green? What if the house turns red and the smiles turn to frowns and the frowns turn blue?”

We are always trying to find this eternal state of happiness; to be content. We are in a constant pursuit of the drawing that will set us free. Some people try to find it through their careers, their religion, their one love, intoxication, or even just new connection. We do have our ups and downs, but has that ever stopped us? The fact that maybe the grass just might be greener on our side is thrilling enough.

Anyway you want it, the one thing that scares us the most is finishing your drawing, looking at it, and realizing you can’t draw for shit.

Monday, May 17, 2010

Efface Morrow

Often I find myself so consumed in a new activity, something I have not even remotely come close to do, or visiting a new place and for the first few moments I feel that this thing or place is in fact new. Though shortly after the thought dies and ideas of the inexperienced exchange for experienced. Trying to comprehend this is just plain odd at times almost as if I am meant to feel this. I don't know if it's just my mind playing tricks on me or maybe it's a bit from a dream I've forgotten. Maybe time is lying to me. Why is it always that we reminisce for the past? Could it be possible that without knowing we're in someway feeling for the future?

The common idea of our existence is that time is a linear function always moving fore ward, but if there was more to time that we knew and my ideas of multidimensional time were to exist seeing into the future, past, possible future(s), or possible past(s) would make perfect sense for my situation. I wish I could prove this, but I don't know where to even begin.

Talk Talk - Laughing Stock
Ambient, Experimental, Jazz

Frederick Allen - Frederick Allen 1
Ambient, Experimental, Pop

Sunday, May 09, 2010

Nostalgic Regrets

the songs you'll never admit you still love

Limp Bizkit didn’t just show the world that it was ok to be a complete pussy, but that a genre of music could die in less than 43 minutes. The poetic lyrics and mind boggling guitar solos performed by Mr. Durst gave every young depressed and emotionally confused teen something to bitch about. Not only that, but the amount of self esteem it gave every man over 30 who couldn’t get laid was beyond comprehension. And though now we look back and wonder how we came to praise such a monstrosity, we will always love them. After all, it is my way or the highway.

Saturday, May 08, 2010

Night Thought

Brain functionality is best at night because when you are thinking your brain is conducting electricity and there are basically a bunch of thoughts streaming through on electric vibrations from one point to another. What is more important is that at night less is happening whether it is technologically influenced or not. So if there is less occurring due to fewer external conflicting frequencies that could possibly misguide the direction of our thought, less ideas will be canceled out in the night thus it is the best time to think. Concentration is the ability to disregard external frequencies from altering your thought.

Small Black - Small Black EP
Indie, Chill Wave, Glofi

Friday, May 07, 2010

Emotions Theory

All emotions are a combination of different feelings and each specific emotion is associated with it's own frequency which your brain emits during such feeling. Assuming feelings are similar to physical quantities and posses derived properties. Indications of these frequencies being emitted are displayed through body language mostly changes in facial features though this does not have to occur. When people can "understand" each other this is just when people's brains are used to understanding what sort of frequencies the their companion's brain is emitting. When understanding is reached this is just compatibility.

Toro y Moi - Causers of This
Indie, Electronic, Chill Wave

Right Time

When is it the right time? Is there ever a right time per say? What is perception? since everything is a frequency would it be logical to assume that if the right time is to occur our brain would somehow know and try to inform us, and is this called perception?

perception - the act or faculty of apprehending by means of the senses or of the mind; cognition; understanding. (

I feel so.

Growing - Vision Swim
Experimental, Shoegaze, Drone